based on: #oh look #now it’s cas’ family that’s burning on the ceiling
1x01 » 8x23#I didn’t understand at first #why the last scene hurt so much #and it took seeing the other two #to realize #Cas his watching his entire family burn#not just falling from grace #but being foreced from heaven #and you can see how he blames himself #he thinks he did this #and he did #because he couldn’t let it go #not like sam let it go #he held it in #and it backfired on him #but this hurts so much #because #he’s alone #he’s alone watching them burn #Dean and Sam had each other #Cas doesn’t even have that #all he has is an empty place where his grace should be #and a deep anguish (via fallingfromthursday)
mothers day
tomorrow is mothers day obviously and its making me massively depressed.. i wish i had a mother again but she bailed on us to have a new life full of partying and drinking… she blames the whole divorce on me.. like she literally told me and i cried.. everyone tells the kids oh it wasnt your fault things just happen… oh no this one you cant say that when your parent clearly told you otherwise.
im gonna be a mother myself and my babies fathers step dads girlfriend is trying to talk me into adopting out my children which puts me in a state of panic because i dont want to lose me kids.. i literally had a panic attack and couldnt breathe for about 5 min. and he had to calm me down. i dont want to lose my kids… i have already lost so much in my life i dont think that i can take anymore. im already on the verge of just ending my entire life because i feel like a massive failure. i just dont know what to do anymore and i dont know who to talk to anymore.. it just sucks im just soo exhausted i wish i had my best friend back :(
